The Paradox of Wanting Feedback

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Recently, I “finished” writing my book. I say “finished” because in my head it was done, but in reality it was not. Yeah, yeah, I still needed to copy-edit it, but all the major work was done (or so I thought). In January and February, I had send my book out to a number of people in my life who offered to read it, and while I was awaiting their feedback, I was working on doing the copy-edits. Looking back, I don’t know what I thought would happen.

I knew they’d have feedback. I wanted them to have feedback. I’d be annoyed if they came back and said it was 100% good. However, when I started to get the feedback back I felt an immense sense of weariness. I guess I had felt like my work was almost done, but seeing some of the points raised by my readers made me realize that the book still has another significant draft left in it. Even now as I write this, I logically know that the amount of work to do is manageable, but I’m having a hard time finding the motivation to do it.

Throughout my life it has always been my tendency to rush into things. I have an idea, I make a plan and then I execute it. When I decided to buy my first car, I was signing the paperwork a few days later. There’s lots of pros to having this kind of personality. I can accomplish a lot and be highly focused. However, the downside is that sometimes I get in over my head, because I jump in with two feet when I should only stick a toe in! My moral vice is impatience. Knowing all this about myself, I didn’t want to rush the book.

In January, I was tempted to start sending it out. I figured I could have the copy-editing done by the time anyone got around to reading my submission. One of my friends in my writing circle strongly advised me not to do that. I’m glad I listened. The book is not ready yet, but in time it will be.

I just finished reading a book that I really enjoyed, and it did bolster my spirits (as good books always do). It reminded me that I really do want my book to be the best it can be. I know that I’ll regret it if I don’t spend the time now and finish strong. I don’t want to look back ten years from now and think I should have just done another draft. So, I’m going to keep fighting the good fight, and writing the good write (does that phrase work?). Onwards and upwards, my friends.

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